Sunday, August 22, 2010

Missing Someone You've Never Met

My heart is heavy.  I miscarried what would have been our third child this weekend.  Questions have been going through my mind.  Why me?  Why us?  What did I do wrong?  Why couldn't we have kept the baby?

I am exhausted from grief.  I am trying to pull myself together for Natty and Nathan, but it is excruciatingly hard painful.  

My mind and my heart remind me that God is in control and has a plan.  The plan does hurt very much that our baby went to be with the Lord and did not get to meet us.

Thank you for your prayers, they are very much appreciated. 

3 comments:

Krystle said...

I am so sorry to hear that. You will be in my prayers.

~Maggie~ said...

Call me.

Candie said...

Oh Arinda how my heart breaks for you. Just cling to Jesus and he will get you through. Remember His ways are not our ways and we will never understand until we get to Heaven. You will always have a hole in your heart. It's been almost 6 years and I still wonder and cry over the one I lost, but I am thankful because Curtis wouldn't be here if the other one was and I wouldn't trade Curtis for anything. Please call if you need to talk, it helps to talk to someone who has gone through it. Praying for you.