When It Rains, It Pours...

The wonderful stomach virus has made its way through our entire family.  Started early Monday morning with Natty.  I made it to work, called in for a 1/2 day sub, then came home to take her to urgent care while Tim stayed with Nathan.  Tuesday afternoon, Nathan got sick.  Tuesday evening Tim got sick.  I pulled my first all-nighter since my undergraduate work days.  I was up all night with Nathan, since Tim wasn't feeling good.  Poor little Nathan threw up off and on all night until about 3 in the morning.  I got a teensie bit of sleep, got ready, and went to work Wednesday feeling kinda icky.  I figured it was just because I was running on empty all day.  Well, I barely made it all the way up our driveway.  I threw open the driver's door and threw up.  I went around to the passenger's side to get my bags and threw up.  I ran into the house, threw the bags onto the floor, and threw up.  And it kept going, and going, and going.  Needless to say, I stayed home from work today.  My saving grace is that tomorrow is Friday, so I am planning on an easy-going school day.  I hope my students comply.

In other news, Nathan is developing quite a vocabulary now!  He can say Milk, Thank you, cracker, a funny version of Nathan, George (for Curious George), and it keeps growing!  Natty is talking in excellent complete sentences.  I am so proud of her.  My mommy-moment the other day was when she woke up from her nap.  I asked if she had a good rest, and she said yes.  So I asked if she had a good dream, and yes!  So I asked what she dreamed about, and she said Jesus!  Totally melted my heart. :)

Happy Almost Friday Everyone!

Happy Belated Birthday Nathan!

On Saturday, we were FINALLY able to have Nathan's 1st birthday party.  It was a blast.  Weather was in the triple digits, but we grilled out hamburger patties.  There was tons of food and tons of company.  Nathan sure made out with all his loot.  I have to say, boy toys are SO MUCH FUN!  It took me like an hour to un-package and assembly everything, but it was so worth it.  I think Natty is into his toys right now though.  She likes to "show him" how to "play" with his toys. :)  Here are some pictures from the day.

Update

My doctor confirmed the miscarriage yesterday morning.  In a way, it was closure for me.  On the other hand, seeing the picture of my empty womb had to have been to hardest and most painful thing I've ever seen.  Usually people are always hoping that their x-rays or ultrasounds showed nothing.  I was deperately pleading the opposite.

I really don't know how I feel at this point.  I am just plain sad, a lot.  I don't feel like doing much, yet I have a bunch of commitments I am responsible for.  The drive to work in the morning is hard.  Once I get into things, work seems to go ok, until my classroom is empty and I'm alone again.

I really do appreciate all the prayers.  I am getting ready for Nathan's belated 1st birthday, so hopefully that'll get my mind off things more.

Missing Someone You've Never Met

My heart is heavy.  I miscarried what would have been our third child this weekend.  Questions have been going through my mind.  Why me?  Why us?  What did I do wrong?  Why couldn't we have kept the baby?

I am exhausted from grief.  I am trying to pull myself together for Natty and Nathan, but it is excruciatingly hard painful.  

My mind and my heart remind me that God is in control and has a plan.  The plan does hurt very much that our baby went to be with the Lord and did not get to meet us.

Thank you for your prayers, they are very much appreciated. 

What's New?

It has been quite a busy couple of weeks!!!!  We finally got moved in.  We moved into OUR home on Aug. 5, and I went back to work Aug. 10th.  The first week and a half or so of work has been great.  We've had some crazy schedules to untangle, but we are almost there.  We are loving being homeowners.  Still can't park in the garage yet, but it's coming.  Right now we are getting settled, and getting ready to ACTUALLY have Nathan's birthday party on Sept. 4th.  It'll be Labor Day weekend, and of course, with being a teacher, I get a 3-day weekend.  If you're local, come stop by!  Well, that's all the updates for now.  Here's something fun to you guys to try to figure out.  What's new with my page?  Will be updating soon, and with pictures.

Taking a Breather!

Oh boy!!!!  What a month it has been!!!!!!  A 45-day escrow turned into a 3-month long escrow.  HORRIBLE!!!!!  Nothing like going through a trial to see what your faith is made of!  

Well, with most of the repercussions of the escrow behind us, we can proudly say, "We ARE Homeowners!!!"  I am not quite to the point that I am excited yet.  I think at this point we're just relieved.  I start back to teaching a week from today, and am freaking out quite a bit.  I'm not nearly has prepared at this point as I should be.  There has just been too much housing stuff going on, and taking care of our two angels.

Anyhow, we are 99% moved into OUR home.  We couldn't stay tonight because neither the stove nor dishwasher was installed today.  We also can't turn on our water until the repairs are done.  We can't clean until the water is on, and we can't put stuff away until the cleaning is done...etc...etc..etc... You get the picture.

I am learning (slowly) that I DO NOT need to do everything at once.  I had it in my mind that I wanted everything to be absolutely PERFECT when we moved, well, things didn't exactly work out my way.  :)

I am excited about the projects coming our way.  The immediate thing thought, is getting stuff put away somewhat, and FINALLY being able to have our Nemo Party for Nathan's 1st birthday.  Poor guy, I had to push the original date back, then had to cancel when our house didn't close on time (for the THIRD time - LLLOOONNNGGG story).  

We are happy to have our own place and slowly putting things together.  The kids have been top priority.  Natty is just thrilled with her room.  It makes just feel so good to see her light up.

Well, that is it for now for updates.  I thought I'd take a breather since I hadn't updated in 2 weeks.

Happy Wednesday!

Happy FIRST Birthday!!!

Happy Birthday Nathan!  A year ago today, your father was driving me to the hospital late on a Saturday morning.  Everyone told me, including Dr. King, that you would be my early baby.  You sure did want to do things on your own time. 

You were a surprise to our family.  Your sister would be turning one in about a month, and I was attending one of my last classes.  The day before I found out I was pregnant with you, I had a root canal!  All I can say is that the Lord choose the perfect to bless me with you.  It was so fun trying to tell your dad about you.  We went out and celebrated with some Thai food.  The first person we told (or I told) was Natty.  Then we told your Grandpa and Grandma.  Then we tried to tell your Papa and Nana, but they weren't home, so we told your Aunt Mollie and Uncle Jon.  Everyone was excited to meet you.

A couple days before you were born, Dr. King decided we needed to induce because I was nearly 2 weeks overdue!  Boy, you sure taught your Mommy patience.  I was so nervous and scared that you were not coming on your own.  I remember staying up late talking to your Daddy, and upset praying we made the right decision.  I prayed I would go into labor on my own and we wouldn't have to force you to come out.  Mommy was getting very big, and we weren't sure how big you were going to be.  It was a quiet and relaxed morning - no contractions at all.  However, lo and Behold, we arrived at the hospital to discover Mommy was indeed in labor.  You were still taking your sweet time though, and needed a little motivation to come meet everyone.

Nathan, you have brought so much joy to me this past year.  I love how you and your sister play.  I pray you guys keep growing close to each other and take care of each other.  I cherish every moment I get with you.  I am honored to be your mother, and know I have done absolutely nothing to derserve your unconditional love.  I love that you want me to cuddle you and sometimes (a lot of times) it has to be just me.  I love that you crawl up to me as fast as you can and try to tackle me with hugs.  I love your slimy kisses, and how you like to blow on my shoulders.  My prayer is that by some miracle, God will teach me each day how to become to Mommy you truly deserve.

Today is your birthday, and I want you to know I love you with all my heart and pray God will equip your father and me to teach you how to become the godly man He desires you to be.  Even though you are only one, I hope you know how much we love you and how much we just absolutely love having you in our lives. 

We love you Nathan!!!!

Daddy - Mommy - Natty