Waiting

Let me start off by saying that buying a home has to be the most stressful thing you may ever do in your life.  I've been reflecting a lot on our adventures the past 2 months.  There is nothing compared to the experiences of purchasing your first home.  It has been more stressful than planning our wedding.  It has also proved to be more stressful than birthing children.  I think Tim has been way more solid than I have throughout this whole process.  I have been so proud of him.  He is truly the godly head of our household.  I am ashame to admit, but I have crumbled quite a many times since March.  We are at the last stretch.  We are 99.9% there, even though I feel like there is a chance we won't the the house anyway.

Tim and I were talking and he reminded me that God is in control, no matter the outcome.  If we don't get the house, it wasn't the home we were suppose to have, and we'd praise the Lord for keeping us from being outside of His will.  If we do get it, the Lord knew all along and He is receiving glory and praise from our obedience to trust Him. 

Trusting in the Lord when you can't see is very difficult.  Have you ever had one of those "trusting" exercises where one member was blindfolded, and you had to trust your partnet to lead you through an obstable course?  I used to hate those, but that is exactly how I feel right now.  I can't see the end result, or understand the trials we've been going through.  The only facts I know is that 1) God is in control, and 2) what God has choose to bless us, Satan will sought out to destroy.