With Great Expectations

We still believe God is moving, and something great is going to happen amidst all this crazy house stuff. I decided to do a little Biblical word study on the word "expectation." I found that having expectation is to wait with confidence and patience. Those two words - confidence and patience - really got me. Have I been confident that God has a place for us, a house for us? In all honestly, I would have to say no. I don't have 100% confidence. Last week I all but gave up hope. Have I been patient about waiting? Another sadly, no. I have been bugging Tim everyday or even a couple times a day as to whether or not he'd heard anything from our realtor about the 2nd offer we placed.

Psalm 46:10 tells us to " 10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

What does it mean to me to be "still?" The Hebrew term means to relax, to sink down, to drop, to abandon, to refrain, to let alone, to be quiet..." Gee....that's a real eye-opener. Have I let my situations go and let God work? No. I always want to try to "help things along."

For the remainder of this house search roller coaster, I've decided in my heart to do the following:

• Be content with where God leads us. Whether that be to another apartment then to a house, I will be thankful that we have a place to live.
• I will be confidence that God will provide for us.
• I will be patient, and know that God is in control and is working.
• I will be still and surrender my worries and concerns to Him, and trust that He is working them out (just as I am typing this out right now).

In other news, I am freezing my nose and fingers off today at work. In the middle of April, it is FREEZING cold here. I had morning duty out at the flag pole and I could not feel my fingers or nose when I got in. The weather sure has been doing some crazy things.

I'm 28 weeks along now. I have less than 90 days to go. I am so excited, but anxious as well. I can't wait to meet Nathan. He is continuing to become more active each day. He is such a strong little guy. Natty still enjoys laying on my belly - and as uncomfortable as it is I let her. It's been her way of bonding with Nathan. She will just lay her head on my belly and coo and say some jibber-jabber, followed with "bbbaaabbyy, oh bbbaaabby...." and rubs my tummy. I know she doesn't understand that there will be an actually baby on the outside in a few short months, but she loves him regardless and that makes me very proud to be her mommy.

Tonight we get to go on a tour of the maternity ward at Riverside Community Hospital, where I will be delivering Nathan. They are actually putting on a "Daddy and Me (Mommy) Time Tea." I'm pretty excited. My overall expereince since switching medical groups to Riverside Medical Clinic has been very positive. I get to see my actual Ob-Gyn, who will also deliver, everytime I go in. Driving into Riverside is tiring, but the care and service I've gotten is definitely worth it.

Well, hope everyone is off to a good Wednesday. I cannot believe another week is also over.