9 Months as a "Ma-Ma"

OUR GORGEOUS PRINCESS

Natty has been out with us for a little over 9 months now. She amazes me. Every little thing about her - from her 6 tiny teeth to facial expressions, the way she looks at me when I get home to how she sleeps peacefully at night - it all amazes me. I am in awe how the Lord has formed her, breathe life into her, and continues to work on and in her. The thing that has been on my heart lately is to not take a single moment for granted. I still struggle with having to work and not be home. It's the role I've been given for this place in time. I am doing - trying to - the best I can to fulfill it. Some days are better than others. I struggle with being content, not having regrets or resentment.

Today I was really tired, and I felt a twinge of guilt for being glad she was asleep early. It's hard. I'm still a nut about running in to check and see if she's breathing and her heart's beating. Almost every morning, I will put my ear lightly on her chest and just listen. The little drumming gives me joy beyond anything, and it's a joy that is just not worthy of putting into words.

Sometimes I just want to keep her as my little "baby." Then I am hubly reminded that she is not "mind," and everyday the Lord is molding her into whom He desires her to be - I pray everyday (try to remember to) that she already is developing a thrist and love for Jesus. Natty is growing so fast. She has learned to do SO much and in little time. Being pregnant with her seems like eons ago.

Natty says "Ma Ma," "Da Da" (just started a week ago), and "Up" every now and then. She tries to say Hi, or mimick me at least, but it just comes out and "AAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!" She has super strong legs that she is standing up on, and trying to stand on her own (currently her record is 3 secs). She loves puppies, pasta, and fruit. She gives "love pats" when you pick her up on your back. Tim and I absolutely love her and adore every minute we have with her. She has taught me SO much about Jesus, life, love, commitment, myself, Tim, and just how to be joyful.

In other news, I'm counting down the days until I go off track! Last week of October!!! I have so much to get ready for - - Natty's First Birthday!!!!!! We've already gotten her invitations, and I'm SOSOSOSOSOSOSO excited! =P